Exhale 30 Day Song Challenge [DAY 25]

[BUWYGF]

I was in a relationship with my boyfriend for 4 years, we lived together and I loved him more than anything in my entire life. In the last 3-4 months of our relationship things got messy as we started to argue more and more each day, our understanding for one another began to fade away. In July of 2018 we went to a very huge festival, where we met a nice group of Croatian tourists; 2 girls and 3 guys. One of them was gay, about 48, but very buff and ****.

He flirted with me all night long but I told him I'm not interested so he backed off. I'm mentioning him because hes important for the story. Anyway, fast forward to beginning of September (my bday is on the 5th) and I accidentally find out that the Croatian guy and my bf have secretly hooked up and my bf in a double relationship for nearly 2 months, and the Croatian guy knew this. 

Needless to say I broke up, moved out and finally bought my own flat. This all caused me great pain, I could physically feel my heart breaking. Especially because I even financially supported my ex for a couple of months because he couldnt (or wouldnt) find a job. I was there throuh thin and thick.

Anyway, I'm over it now, it's been two years and I can freely say im a very happy and successful young man. My ex? The croatian guy cheated on him, he lost his job, and now he's back living with his parents. 

This song has gotten me through the entire process of healing from a tough break up. He realized that I truly am one in a million the hard way.

 

[Exaholic]

38 minutes ago, Geralt_of_Rivia said:

2 years ago I was in a very bad place mentally the whole summer. I isolated myself and took night shift after night shift which messed up my metabolism. I was in a relationship with this sweet girl who was the best but struggled very much with my behaviour at the time. Things got worse one day after I had watched Forest Gump. I got drunk and had a breakdown because of all things that had accumulated.

That night I also had to face my sexuality. Well I didn't have to but my mind chose the moment to do that. I had tried stuff with guys before that but was in the stage of denial that I was only straight. I felt horrible for not having told my girlfriend at the time and I chose not to tell her so we broke up. 

That's when I decided I'd end my life. That I was worthless. This song represents that moment of my life. I listened to it for hours on end. 

So happy that you overcame this and you’re still here to share your story with us. I love this song and Breaking Benjamin. 

[BabyBabyBay]

1 hour ago, Itachi said:

We were never lovers but something close to that. He was like a brother, a confidant, a boyfriend, a best friend, all wrapped in one. But we ended up drifting apart when I wanted to be clear with what we have, because he wanted us to remain the same - ambiguous but spontaneous. So when we both moved on and I started seeing other men, I can't help myself comparing them to him. Even the slightest gestures of other guys remind me of him, and I guess he is someone I will never truly move on from, because even our "break-up" was ambiguous.

This was our song, and it will forever haunt me with his memories.

 

This sucks. Ambiguous ones are tricky because it makes you feel like you're grieving something that didn't exist officially.

I hope that you'll eventually make peace with what memories you had with this guy and allow others to make new, unique memories with you without the thought of this guy. 

[Busybee]

 

This song reminds me of my 6th grade crush. He was super short but super cute and all the girls liked him because he was super charming. I knew he wouldn't like me because I was less than cute at that age . BUT I did always have a one up on talking to him because we bonded on our love and obsession for Eminem. He was always so nice to me so this reminds me of that time and the innocense of it all.

Its worth mentioning I looked up him up a few years ago and he's a high school drop out with like 8 kids and a few felony charges . 

[Mattyj7883]

52 minutes ago, Roxxy said:

You are. We are. You and I are.

 

[icybaby]

Ok it was just a time we started noticing guys and they started noticing us. So i had a girlfriend and we used to go out with some guys and so there were this guy who i really didn"t like but felt he was trying to show up. He was studying in university and we were just high school girls. And he had mp3 player or whatever i don't remember. And he played that song and i was like or i know english so good and  i like the meaning of the chorus. And he goes like u need to translate the whole song for me if u really know english. And it was time then there is no internet so i had to listen it over and over and gave him translation next day.  I remember sitting with my girlfriend and playing that song on a record player.I do not even know why would it bothered me to show him that i really can understand english.  Hardest part for me was to understand whether it was "and i think to myself" or "i picture myself " what a wonderful world.

By the way guy was a total douche he later was my sisters boyfriend and he treated her like a garbage. Presented her artificial flowers (usually used for funerals) to her birthday or valentines day do not remember exactly. Remember that i was like i knew he was bad from the first look and my intuition was so true . Still like the song anyway

 

 

 

[FedericoScquizzato]

1 hour ago, Roxxy said:

Tokio Hotel is the reason you got into playing music?  I know one song from them and but I can't remember the title and how it goes but I discovered it on MTV before and I would always watch it whenever it was on. I just forgot the title. What was their biggest hit? 

 

1 hour ago, Roxxy said:

Tokio Hotel is the reason you got into playing music?  I know one song from them and but I can't remember the title and how it goes but I discovered it on MTV before and I would always watch it whenever it was on. I just forgot the title. What was their biggest hit? 

Monsoon is their biggest hit

You probably listened to that or Übers Ende Der Welt ( Ready, Set Go! )

[Blackout2006]

1 hour ago, Towelney said:

Make sure you write it in the Notes app. 

And don’t forget to say “I have grown up and matured since”

[Mr. Cavill]

58 minutes ago, Roxxy said:

I'm glad your life didn't end that day and you're here with us now, Geralt.  Not everyone is cut out to handle troubled men. Lucky for you, I am.

 and yeah, I agree. I can be a pain in the peach for some. Sadly, I can't do relationships but oh well

56 minutes ago, Corso said:

So happy that you overcame this and you’re still here to share your story with us. I love this song and Breaking Benjamin. 

Thanks! They're one of my favourite bands. So bummed that they refuse to come to Europe. 

[Towelney]

10 minutes ago, Blackout2006 said:

And don’t forget to say “I have grown up and matured since”

I’ll make another apology thread 

[Itachi]

56 minutes ago, BabyBabyBay said:

This sucks. Ambiguous ones are tricky because it makes you feel like you're grieving something that didn't exist officially.

I hope that you'll eventually make peace with what memories you had with this guy and allow others to make new, unique memories with you without the thought of this guy. 

thank you

him and i were some of the best memories i have, ngl  so i'm trying to look back at it positively and try not to be too bitter like i was before, cause really sometimes not having a proper closure is also a closure.

[RadicalOptimism]

1 hour ago, Midnight said:

One of my menses from the past 

The menses that got away 

[Midnight]

Just now, CrazyButItFeelsAllright said:

The menses that got away 

 

[RadicalOptimism]

1 hour ago, BUWYGF said:

I was in a relationship with my boyfriend for 4 years, we lived together and I loved him more than anything in my entire life. In the last 3-4 months of our relationship things got messy as we started to argue more and more each day, our understanding for one another began to fade away. In July of 2018 we went to a very huge festival, where we met a nice group of Croatian tourists; 2 girls and 3 guys. One of them was gay, about 48, but very buff and ****.

He flirted with me all night long but I told him I'm not interested so he backed off. I'm mentioning him because hes important for the story. Anyway, fast forward to beginning of September (my bday is on the 5th) and I accidentally find out that the Croatian guy and my bf have secretly hooked up and my bf in a double relationship for nearly 2 months, and the Croatian guy knew this. 

Needless to say I broke up, moved out and finally bought my own flat. This all caused me great pain, I could physically feel my heart breaking. Especially because I even financially supported my ex for a couple of months because he couldnt (or wouldnt) find a job. I was there throuh thin and thick.

Anyway, I'm over it now, it's been two years and I can freely say im a very happy and successful young man. My ex? The croatian guy cheated on him, he lost his job, and now he's back living with his parents. 

This song has gotten me through the entire process of healing from a tough break up. He realized that I truly am one in a million the hard way.

 

I love this song and how it samples one of my favorite songs ever 

[Daddy O]

This is a story about 

3 guys 

4 years in to our relation, me and my boyfriend were taking a time out. In that time I get to know better a guy (his move) I already met months before, in one of many stood ups I was left by my boyfriend (in a cruising spot )

He was very affectionnate, something that my boyfriend lacks 

So the time we spend together he treated me real well (so I thought) and this music came out around that time and became "our" song 

Feel - Robbie Williams

Follow up: it lasted 3/4 months. I found out he was very "friendly" with maaany guys 

Meanwhile I and my boyfriend resume our relation and start living together 

Still LOOOOVE the song, but, I only listen to it whem I'm alone 

[Roxxy]

1 hour ago, BabyBabyBay said:

This came out the summer I was going to start college (the UK version, not university) and things with the first guy I ever dated fell apart.

I had found out that he fell for the friend I confided everything about the situation to and they were together. I was pretty devastated and felt betrayed.

Thankfully I spent a lot of that summer with my actual friends and I was staying with one friend. We played this song and it just made me realise that I was going to be okay and that I was still surrounded by good people and my life was good regardless.

It was my first experience of getting jaded and focusing on bad experiences and thinking peoples' actions are a reflection on you. I still go back and forth with that a lot, but times like this one always reel me back to the realisation that regardless of how many people do wrong by you, there are people that still love you and there's so much good in life to come.

We get better, not bitter

I love this for you!

We do get better, not bitter. I hope people take notes.

[Roxxy]

1 hour ago, Corso said:

So when I was 16 I had this group of friends, initially they were actually my close cousin Heather’s friends from school and she introduced me to everyone and I became part of their friend group and we all became very close. Although I stayed across town and went to another school, I made the effort to travel most days and socialise with them all after school.

Anyways, it was the last weekend of summer before school started and we were all at Jess’ house having a barbecue in her garden. Jess and my cousin Heather were best friends. We had all been having a sneaky drink because Jess’ parents were out of town and her older brother Jason was in charge of the house for the weekend, he wasn’t part of our friend group because he was 20 and in college, but he sometimes would hang out with us. I got really drunk and he ended up driving me home. Before I got out the car he told me that he really liked me. It took me aback because I thought Jason was 100% straight. Like legitimately never would have guessed he was into guys at all, besides playing sports with them.

So anyway the next day, I couldn’t actually remember what he’d said and I thought he told me that, but at the same time wasn’t sure if I had imagined it or something. Later in the day he text me and told me he wanted to go for a drive in the car so we could talk, so I figured he actually did say what I thought he did. So we drove and talked for a while and he said that we could see each other, but it had to be in secret until he had the confidence to tell people he was gay. I had only recently came out and understood how scary it was and so I went along with the idea.

So for like 6 months, at any given opportunity, we would meet each other. It was exciting. But after a while I got tired of waiting for him. Things were getting serious and he didn’t want to tell anyone. I felt like I needed to speak to someone about it, it was taking a toll on me too and so I decided that it would be safe to tell my cousin Heather what was going on because she wouldn’t tell anyone.

Of course, I was wrong. Within a few hours she had told his sister Jess and the whole friend group knew. Jess confronted Jason about it and he flat-out denied the whole thing. Everyone believed his story - he was so heterosexual-acting that it had to be me that was lying.

The whole group, including Jason, confronted me about it together and Jason punched me in the face when I tried to tell them all my side of the story. What he then said was that it was obvious I was lying because him and Natalie (another girl in the friend group) had been seeing each other for the last few months and so it couldn’t be true. That literally broke my heart. He’d been seeing her at the same time.

He is now married to Natalie and they have 3 kids together. I’ve never spoke to my cousin or any of them again.

When I rediscovered “You Oughta Know” around the time of the break up, it spoke to me in ways no song has ever spoke to me before. It was the exact embodiment of everything I felt, everything I wanted to say. It was like therapy for me. Alanis’ lyrics helped me in ways I cannot even explain and I’m so grateful this song exists.

Sorry for the insanely long story...

OH MY GOD THAT'S HORRIBLE. #TheBetrayal

I can't that he even punched you. I hope you get your Shattered Glass fantasy and he atleast regrets what he did to you.

[Urbanney]

Y'all, this might be my favorite thread on Exhale ever. I'm really loving reading all of your stories

[RadicalOptimism]

31 minutes ago, BuckyKatt said:

This is a story about 

3 guys 

4 years in to our relation, me and my boyfriend were taking a time out. In that time I get to know better a guy (his move) I already met months before, in one of many stood ups I was left by my boyfriend (in a cruising spot )

He was very affectionnate, something that my boyfriend lacks 

So the time we spend together he treated me real well (so I thought) and this music came out around that time and became "our" song 

Feel - Robbie Williams

Follow up: it lasted 3/4 months. I found out he was very "friendly" with maaany guys 

Meanwhile I and my boyfriend resume our relation and start living together 

Still LOOOOVE the song, but, I only listen to it whem I'm alone 

I thought this was going to be a threesome story 

[RadicalOptimism]

13 minutes ago, Urbanney said:

Y'all, this might be my favorite thread on Exhale ever. I'm really loving reading all of your stories

Did you post one?