Britney shares an inspirational message, reveals she's "never been more humiliated and embarrassed in my life during the years in my conservatorship"

[Slayer]

 

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It's crazy living in Los Angeles ... I was thinking about getting a **** job ... my ***** are fairly small ... I mean with the right bra it's but I was curious what a doctor would say !!! I lost 7 pounds in the last 6 months and that's a lot for me !!! I'm officially part of the "itty bitty titty committee" ... they shrunk !!! I don't know where my ***** went ... well I show up at the office and I'm going the back way walking up 8 flights of stairs !!! I'm like WTF IS THIS ??? They want you to die before you make it there !!! **** THIS !!! Nobody was there to let us in ... uhhh how long do we wait here ??? 10 minutes go by ... 15 minutes .... **** that !!! I've never been back ... then I get home and go online to see the biggest starts getting facials with their facialist saying, "people don't believe but no filter !!! This is real !!! This celebrity has done movies and all and is shot so beautifully ... what the hell is she trying to prove ??? I know she's beautiful !!! I've seen her in person so it was weird seeing someone like her trying to convince people she's natural beautiful ... then I said to myself I do the same but I'm not nearly as beautiful as she is yet I kind of do the same thing !!! I haven't been shot well though, I've never been more humiliated and embarrassed in my life during the years in my conservatorship ... Yes I do care and anyone would if you saw yourself the way I have ... my dad always told me I was fat and being the heavy girl on stage wasn't fun ... It was humiliating !!! I had one good cover in 13 years of my conservatorship ... the rest were all extremely bad !!! They could have at least cheated and used technology ... but they used it to make it worse !!! Such a ******* waste of time ... I believe all girls care and if you have ever had a guy say there's no looking at your face ... not @SamAsghari of course ... you would understand how it really hurts !!! So I will admit I do play into how I look ... I care but it disgusted me when I went to that doctor's office because guys were there getting nose jobs !!! I'm like WTF ... really it's too much !!! I am absolutely a victim to all of the societal objectifications and exploitations that women are subjected to ... I have bought into myself at times !!! SORRY IT'S A LOT !!! I personally believe people can be happy whether they are skinny, old, fat, whatever ... if you are happy and have good energy, you are 100% attractive !!! Happy people draw light and it's contagious and attractive !!! God knows the secret to my success was never how beautiful I was !!! I believe I was a tease ... just a very cool energy !!! When my family sent me to that place the main thing that hurt me was the medicine they put me on !!! You can go brain dead if you take too much, that's how strong it is !!! It made me stupid and sad and I gained so much weight ... I felt ugly, angry and mean therefore I was just that !!! The manipulation behind my family's scheme in subjecting me as if I had done something wrong to literally throwing me away and taking all of my joy away is cruel !!! The other day I started cooking something ... I DIDN'T THINK AT ALL !!! I ate it in literally 2 seconds ... NOT ATTRACTIVE but I don't give a **** !!! I felt 2 years old with the kind of satisfaction that can only come to the wisest of the wise and I realized the damage of my thinking ... my 2 sons are geniuses !!! Jayden can play jazz and literally anything on the piano !!! His gift scares me ... we watched Green Book and he sat down and immediately started playing the blues ... it's scary how good he is but he said the other day.  "Mamma it's the thoughts I think too much" ... I was like, "NOOOOOOO !!! Don't be me ever please God, no" !!!! But in that moment I realized the one thing that really hurt me besides drugging me like a zombie was how desperate I was to survive and get through each day and how much thinking I had to do ... but my thoughts were all exposed 10 hours a day !!! I didn't have time for private thoughts ... after 4 months of that I forgot who I was because I had no internal thoughts anymore yet they said they did that for me to have personal time ... before going there if you knew me you knew that I was EXTREMELY private and literally didn't talk to anyone ... I still think I'm finding myself 3 years later and that's okay !!! I just wanted to share this !!! Do your own research on these procedures and as hard as it may be ... learn to ******* love yourself !!!

 

[Slayer]

I love the message she's putting across to love yourself no matter, how 'skinny', 'old', 'fat' you are.

What I love even more is seeing her quote her younger self!

So proud of this woman.

[BreatheForBritney]

I love that she's sharing her thoughts with us. She's right, her looks wasn't all that made her successful, it's her energy and personality ♥️

[Onyxgirl17]

I just finished reading it on insta and tbh she’s such an inspiration to me. A good reminder that being happy is the light that draws people to you. Thank you Britney for sharing your insights, your pain, and your truth. We stan the most authentic pop star 💖. I hope she never is made to feel the way that the conservators made her feel again and that she only lives her best life. We love you queen!

[zone]

2 minutes ago, Onyxgirl17 said:

I just finished reading it on insta and tbh she’s such an inspiration to me. A good reminder that being happy is the light that draws people to you. Thank you Britney for sharing your insights, your pain, and your truth. We stan the most authentic pop star 💖. I hope she never is made to feel the way that the conservators made her feel again and that she only lives her best life. We love you queen!

She has always been

[Fab britney]

I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t curious what she thought the 1 good cover was  in my opinion the only bad ones were cosmo 2010 and lucky 2012, but aside from the V ones, out and rolling stone they were generally boring 

[DollyParton]

Write that book gurl! 

[Onyxgirl17]

1 minute ago, Fab britney said:

I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t curious what she thought the 1 good cover was  in my opinion the only bad ones were cosmo 2010 and lucky 2012, but aside from the V ones, out and rolling stone they were generally boring 

So she didn’t approve of her album covers post conservatorship, confirmed. 

[DonMegaX]

4 minutes ago, BreatheForBritney said:

She's right, her looks wasn't all that made her successful, it's her energy and personality

I wish more people understood that in the beginning. A lot of other young women had their careers disheveled behind that thinking.

[Slayer]

Incase it gets deleted:

[b42ad]

She is so introspective, I love when she shares her streams of consciousness with us like this. What a complex, fascinating and wonderful woman she is.

[LizeS_]

WTF is with Jamie and his obsession with Britney's body? 😤😤 what a creep

[Fab britney]

3 minutes ago, Onyxgirl17 said:

So she didn’t approve of her album covers post conservatorship, confirmed. 

Tbh I took it as magazine covers but even tho I love it circus came to mind

[b42ad]

9 minutes ago, Fab britney said:

I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t curious what she thought the 1 good cover 

I can’t recall the magazine but it would be the one from the Glory era with the orange background and black dress / net leotard. She has posted it on insta and has it framed in her home 

 

Edit: Marie Claire 2016

 

[faded_fudge]

7 minutes ago, Fab britney said:

I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t curious what she thought the 1 good cover was  in my opinion the only bad ones were cosmo 2010 and lucky 2012, but aside from the V ones, out and rolling stone they were generally boring 

Oh my goodness! The Lucky one was so bad

[Onyxgirl17]

1 minute ago, LizeS_ said:

WTF is with Jamie and his obsession with Britney's body? 😤😤 what a creep

It’s so unethical and downright evil that he was legally put in charge of her. As Britney said, the people who did this to her should not be able to get away with it so easily. 
 

Well I hope none of them can go out in public from the shame that comes upon them…. And of course that they go to jail eventually. 

[Onyxgirl17]

1 minute ago, Fab britney said:

Tbh I took it as magazine covers but even tho I love it circus came to mind

The glory cover she wanted was the one chained to a house, right ? 

[Pinky98]

8 minutes ago, Onyxgirl17 said:

So she didn’t approve of her album covers post conservatorship, confirmed. 

She looks genuinely pissed off on the BJ cover let’s be honest 

[danielpierce]

Just read this on insta. I can completely relate to her especially the part she say she had to survive everyday, thats probably generalized anxiety its really hard to concentrate and pull yourself together everyday when you have anxiety. Britney is so amazing , so proud of her 

[la_land]

it disgusted me when I went to that doctor's office because guys were there getting nose jobs !!! I'm like WTF ... really it's too much !!!

 

Why does it bother her that guys are getting nosejobs? I mean she had like two for sure. Let men and women do whatever they want with their bodies.