I have a bully this year again, i didn't have this kind of situation this year yet but:

[FullyDattAndDatt3full]

i was just told i am sick, i am a crazy person

its so saddening he had a bad mood and blacknamed me like that

i will not forget this in my 05-02-2021

RIP

05-02-2021 i died all over again

what to do with simple people like that who always want to remember me about my sickness?

i know i am not correct even for him he has to confess i annoy him with my moods

any advice?

[FullyDattAndDatt3full]

i know this people want to always care about me

but secretly wants to hurt me

he is very attractive and i can't escape from him

it is not okay

he plays friend for some time, then calls me names to offend me

i know he is not exactly the best friend i have, lol

a secondary friend who entertains me

if i had someone else filling his place i would i guess

[FullyDattAndDatt3full]

of course he knows he is better than me duh but he doesn't have to insult me then i am doing worse 

[FullyDattAndDatt3full]

i know he has helped me a lot but is this a philosophy that every once in a while he has to hurt me too. i think Estonians think they have to but he is Russian too ...

[nwonder]

I don’t really understand your thread but I hope you’re doing okay 

[BUWYGF]

....what's going on in here?

[wecouldbelovers]

yes?

[ChromaticaGlory]

Can you elaborate on what you're saying? I don't understand what you're trying to get at, but I'm here for you if you need me 

[Blackout2006]

Bestie, if he ever comes 4 u just give me a DM and I will help u drag him down hell lane 🙄🤚

[FullyDattAndDatt3full]

4 hours ago, nwonder said:

I don’t really understand your thread but I hope you’re doing okay 

 

3 hours ago, BUWYGF said:

....what's going on in here?

 

3 hours ago, wecouldbelovers said:

yes?

 

3 hours ago, ChromaticaGlory said:

Can you elaborate on what you're saying? I don't understand what you're trying to get at, but I'm here for you if you need me 

 

1 hour ago, Blackout2006 said:

Bestie, if he ever comes 4 u just give me a DM and I will help u drag him down hell lane 🙄🤚

well i guess id have to direct that topic to another direction

What do you recommend for me to do so i would be better at explaining

every fifth thread i make majority says they don't understand **** what i am saying even if i dedicate so much to make these threads

[jordeezy river red]

I know what you mean - you have a one-sided friendship and the "friend" is insensitive. I am sorry that they don't understand your situation. Sometimes friends don't get it. I have a friend that is going through a hard time right now and I am trying to help her so I hope I do not come across as your friend comes across to you. 

[nwonder]

4 hours ago, F-ENE-kass said:

 

 

 

 

well i guess id have to direct that topic to another direction

What do you recommend for me to do so i would be better at explaining

every fifth thread i make majority says they don't understand **** what i am saying even if i dedicate so much to make these threads

Okay so I re-read your OP and from what I can understand...

You are attracted to your friend but they are emotionally abusive to you and they use your past illness against you? 

My advice would be to cut this friend out immediately. It sounds like they are using the fact that you are  attracted to them to manipulate and diminish you.

Life is too short to have such negative energy in your life. It’s also pretty crappy to use illness as an Insult. 

A friendship like that can be very detrimental to your mental health and your own personal growth.
 

You have to put yourself first.

Im not sure if this helps you but I wish you well ❤️

 

[ChromaticaGlory]

20 hours ago, F-ENE-kass said:

i know this people want to always care about me

but secretly wants to hurt me

he is very attractive and i can't escape from him

it is not okay

he plays friend for some time, then calls me names to offend me

i know he is not exactly the best friend i have, lol

a secondary friend who entertains me

if i had someone else filling his place i would i guess

Now that I read it clearly, you're attracted to one of your good friends, but yet he calls you names, insults you, makes fun of your mental illness, and hurts you when he can? Let me tell you something... That "friend" is not a friend at all. He's toxic, and you need to stay away from him. I see too many red flags

[Blackout2006]

12 hours ago, F-ENE-kass said:

 

 

 

 

well i guess id have to direct that topic to another direction

What do you recommend for me to do so i would be better at explaining

every fifth thread i make majority says they don't understand **** what i am saying even if i dedicate so much to make these threads

From my understanding, ur "friend" is verbally abusing you. So what I advise you to do is block him immediately. This is a toxic relationship you have caught yrself into. Before matters get worse I do suggest cutting him off, blocking him and politely telling him that you are no more comfortable with their friendship and close this chapter in yr life. Such people can ruin other people's lives to massive degrees so pls do this before it gets more bad. I too have been in a situation like this which affected me for life and I wish not to see other people go to through that pain. Sending love as well and take of yrself  <3