Six months ago i lost my big brother he passed away. I have a therapist but it only helps for a few moments then i go back to being sad. he was my support system. he helped me twice in 2017 & 2021 when i was homeless. we talked weekly on video chat because he lived on the east coast i live on the west. he'd give me advice and encourage me. he was very friendly,kind,confident, helping, energetic. he was a father of two and had a fiance. he was just a good man. I'll never get to see him or talk to my brother every again it hurts. my brother was only 35 and im 28. he was overprotective and hard on me at times. i dont know if this is allowed but thought id share.