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So yeah, as said in the title, i wish my feelings and hormones would just go along with my brain for once, but i guess it's just trying to fight an already lost battle. I usually tend on being quite distrustful when i met people i don't know in the first place because i don't want to give away my affection to random people, but i'm not an introvert at all aswell (i used to be when younger, not anymore). It's just part of who i am. But when i meet somebody new for a certain period of time that apparently has really good vibes and genuine manners and starts talking to me (even with really boring topics) that's where i end up beign infatuated. ALWAYS. It happened to me a lot in the past (before and after finding out that i was born this way) and i know for a fact these kind of situations mean 'self-distruction'. As far as i claim to be 'experienced' now...well, it's kinda happening again. I've been meeting a handsome guy in my hometown theatre for a month: respectful, polite and always with a big smile on his face. We just started talking each other recently...so yeah, what a perfect time to begin making up fake scenarios in my head! And he has a girlfriend since forever. I honestly would like to stop with this mess always happening, lmao. And if i sensed an ugly personality i wouldn't care less about the aesthetic, trust me. So it's really nothing serious, but i just wanted to share my little story. Did the same thing still happen to you guys or happened in the past?