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The title says it all Tbh I'm a closeted 20 something yo who is happy to be this way! A problem with this is I be attracted to Straight guys (I assume most guys are straight which is true). My modus operandi when. I have a crush is I write "love letters" and gift the guy candy like a lollipop or a chocolate. Right now I be working at a Wendy's and I have a friendly crush on this tall, handsome, white guy who I get along with (I helped him do the dishes and sashay around when I be cleaning the tables and seats even though afterwards they make me take out the trash Anywayzzz I did the same thing again and I was afraid I'd be smacked in the face with the grill if I attempted to give him a lollipop! I ain't tryna to look like the patties we flip! It took me back to what I did in highschool and the trauma that followed... won't let it happen again I promised, but I did. I broke down crying in my sister's arm after getting in her car. This ish I can't handle and make me feel very Mary and emotional. Good thing tomorrow I work at FedEx and I become straight again (I have 2 jobs lol)!!! Wish you all good things and hope you're all doing well! If you want share what your fatal attraction is!!!! Good day loves!!!😘
So yeah, as said in the title, i wish my feelings and hormones would just go along with my brain for once, but i guess it's just trying to fight an already lost battle. I usually tend on being quite distrustful when i met people i don't know in the first place because i don't want to give away my affection to random people, but i'm not an introvert at all aswell (i used to be when younger, not anymore). It's just part of who i am. But when i meet somebody new for a certain period of time that apparently has really good vibes and genuine manners and starts talking to me (even with really boring topics) that's where i end up beign infatuated. ALWAYS. It happened to me a lot in the past (before and after finding out that i was born this way) and i know for a fact these kind of situations mean 'self-distruction'. As far as i claim to be 'experienced' now...well, it's kinda happening again. I've been meeting a handsome guy in my hometown theatre for a month: respectful, polite and always with a big smile on his face. We just started talking each other recently...so yeah, what a perfect time to begin making up fake scenarios in my head! And he has a girlfriend since forever. I honestly would like to stop with this mess always happening, lmao. And if i sensed an ugly personality i wouldn't care less about the aesthetic, trust me. So it's really nothing serious, but i just wanted to share my little story. Did the same thing still happen to you guys or happened in the past?